Record in my head

I hear this record in my head, being played over and over again,
I wanna change this track, rewrite the karma of my pain,
This situation, no ways its gonna pay,
I dream of disguise, I know I cannot fade away...

I learnt the rules of bending the rules, should I really care,
Shrinking in thoughts, when what I learn from the world is fear,
Learning to roll like a stone, collecting the mosses as I do,
You don't teach me who I am, I know I am not a hoe...