Your Thought

your thought grows like a cancer in my mind,
my soul has betrayed me, it says its no more mine,
i liked it, loved it and left it all to grow,
it slay me, raped me and made me another prey.

she chained to her bed and made me another slave,
she ripped me, she smacked me and called me a stain,
i cant live or do i choose to die, i want to feel the pleasure,
i am drowning in the beatitude of this thought.

i am loving it..........
yeah the pain inside me,
i am loving it,
yeah yeah yeah i am living in it..............(2)

I am not going to make it

Crawling on the floor with blood in my eyes,
I am trying to see why I am blinded,
Seek to dig the blind memories that have faded,
I moved on with this scars on my face,
Like the seed which I threw in fire,
Here I stand by me, and I see a different me in the mirror,
Insanity I got from my lost Vanity,

pushing my hard to keep myself going,

But I know I cant make it..

I am pushing my self to the end,

God damn I am not gonna make it...

Sometimes changing yourself is for your good!!!

I have been through it... i have been through once... Why is it that I have to go through it again... It is because i make the same choices? Is it because I have not changed and I think the same?
Why is it I am taken for what I am... Why is it I am not taken for my choices... Don't u think its irrational...
I was made to believe that being one's self can neva harm him/her self... What if thy self is hurt so much that u hate ur self... You turn around to see the people who changed them self are happy and seem they lost nothing...
The beauty is marred from within when u see she calls you friend and doesn't accept your love..
The dreams are shattered into pieces when they tell you are good but we dont want you...
The selfness is lost when you think everything is alright but the life goes astray...

I don't want her to take me in her life... I dont want the world to accept me... All I ask for is a honest voice... A voice that would say you are not good for me or we dont think you worth it... A voice which I will listen and say I know the world doesnt like me, but I know what I am now... I will do what ever I can, to get better at what I do... And make a choice so that I dont have to go through it again...I dont have to go through it again...

I don't wanna be wrong anymore

I heard her voice flowing like a melody in the zephyr...
And I began wandering like a bee in search of the flower...
Could I be right, Could I be wrong...
Or is it just another illusion of a song...

When she dances like the fire raising above the sky...
I feel she is leaving me, I dunno why...
I have been waiting here so long...
Don't let me wither baby for I don't wanna be wrong...

Why don't you... Why don't you understand...
I don't wanna be wrong... I don't wanna be wrong... Anymore

When u asked who I am... When u knew me

Wind sweeps you off your feet, when u bask in glory....
I heard the thunder strike, I felt no sorry...
I saw u smiling there, with tears in your eyes...
And I said I am the devil of the mind... Inside your heart

I wanna break free

In the fear of danger, I let my tears fall free....
I know I have locked the cage, thus the bird doesn't sing...
Thyself is locked like the cage, where is the key...
Free the bird from the cage, See it fly and feel the song

A lover soldier

You fought a million war,
You neva let the guns cool,
Moments taken to retrieve what u want,
The sunsets and you know you will die some day,
Fighting the war for her,
You take the bullets with a smile,
Neva did you regret what u did,
Neva thought of the souls slaughtered,
You know she was yours,
You fought a million war,
You neva let the guns cool,
You saw her smile, you saw her future,
As you die... With peace